when you weren’t anyone. Days gone undercover.
Days half-dead in half-light, days under the covers.
Days hoping for a dawn that wouldn’t come, days nights
and the sun a dull, faded thing seen through nights
of curtains drawn through days of nothing but you, you
being the last thing you’d want to think about, you
being, you’d discovered, precisely the fucking problem.
Days indistinguishable. Everything a problem.
Days gone, days not done but done in from the start,
days of never touching a pen or making a start
but thoughts a blank — days of feeling nothing
then everything, everything come to nothing.
Days put behind you. Days that don’t deserve the name.
Days put behind you. Days would never be the same.