Spectator poems
From the magazine

Ida

Diana Hendry
EXPLORE THE ISSUE 12 July 2025
issue 12 July 2025

Who wanted to be my mammy.

Who I wanted to be my mammy.

We didn’t tell anyone

not even ourselves.

Mother stood in the way

obdurate, certain of ownership,

not knowing I’d fallen in love with another.

Ida wanted to hold me

I wanted Ida to hold me

It never happened.

We knew it was illicit

this mother daughter adoption.

I memorised her address

(2 Chapel Road)

in case I should need to run

and find her, be the child

she didn’t have.

I knew all about her sisters,

Madge and Dolly

and the dresses they wore

each with a sash of a different colour.

In Ida’s cold kitchen

I’d find a bowl of raspberry jelly

put to set under a cloth weighted

with bright glass beads.

When Ida went to work

she wore scarlet lipstick,

put her hair into a pleat,

tried to look smart.

Poor Ida, my mother said.