Anil Bhoyrul

Death on the NHS

Ten years ago the National Health Service eased my father’s last days. My mother, this year, was not nearly so lucky

I’ve never understood the phrase ‘died peacefully’. Two weeks ago I watched my mother die, in the very same NHS hospital where I watched my father die almost ten years earlier.

There was nothing peaceful about it, at least from my unwanted ringside seat. The end — acute pneumonia providing the final nail in a soon-to-be purchased coffin — was painfully slow. It dragged on and on and on. She struggled for her last breaths and appeared distressed, confused and frightened to the end.

The last time I had been to St Helier hospital in south London was September 2005, as my father slowly slipped away. Naturally the memories came flooding back. And so did confusion. Ten years is a long time, especially in the NHS. A lot has changed, and none of it, from what I saw, has been for the better.

Medically, their endings were similar. Both in their early eighties, both with a history of cardiac problems and gradually weakening bodies that could no longer stomach (literally) or respond to more medication. But, bizarrely, I have uplifting memories of 2005. A consultant calling me aside, explaining why there would only be one outcome. He told me to prepare mentally for the imminent death, described in detail what to expect in the coming days, and pointed me to support services. My father was both comforted and made comfortable to the end. An hour after he died, I remember the nursing staff queuing up to offer their condolences. I had no doubt they really meant it. It was both sad and beautiful. And it was definitely dignified.

In 2016 it was different, especially for someone like me who doesn’t live in the UK and has not used any NHS services for ten years. During the four days I spent at my mother’s bedside, not one consultant approached or contacted me or any other family member.

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